This is my brain on ADHD

One time I remember sitting in the library and watching a guy read a page in a textbook straight through. His eyes started at the top of the page and moved progressively along each line to the bottom. HOW IS HE DOING THAT!! There was no flipping back and forth to other pages or nervous fidgeting. I tried to imitate him but by the time I read the first sentence I could feel my skin start to crawl. My eyes began to search the page for an illustration or equation or other object to focus my attention on. I would realize what my eyes were doing and return them to the first sentence again. I looked back at the studier again for clues as to how he managed to read each sentence in succession. He appeared to be just sitting there. He made it look so easy. I returned my attention to my book and the first demonic sentence. I could feel a physical revulsion in my chest and stomach toward the textbook. I wanted to set it on fire. I wanted to throw it out the window. I wanted to throw my mind out the window. I needed to get up and go back to my apartment because the library was driving me crazy. Maybe if I played a few video games it would settle my mind and then I could study. Yes, that’s what I would do and then study later. I packed up my books to leave knowing that I wouldn’t be studying anything for a few days.